I freeze up

I’m lost in general….

I found out recently I am due for a panel date. Okay so that is not new to any of you…  but before I was like, “meh I don’t know when the heck I will do it” or I keep on thinking to myself, “I have time”. Yet I just talked to someone in cooperate who is telling me that I am next and she will call me for a date next week… Can I say gah? or meep…. random noises to indicate how nervous I am!!! I know this is only an interview and I know if I fail I can always go up again… yet I still feel very nervous. I don’t get it… I don’t know why… I am just… freezing up in general over it. Now that I know that it is coming up soon, I am panicking. What do I answer for the question on Composure? What do I say about Diversity? Wait!!!! What coffee blend should I choose and will I pair it with the right foods? How do I describe the aroma/taste?!?!?! GAH! That is all I have to say about this interview… and not only that… What do I wear? Do I need a totally new wardrobe? Where can I get a new business suit for a reasonable price?… I hate this feeling and all…

So to ease myself I think I should enjoy this concert to the extent of it as I should. If any of you don’t know… tonight (January 29) I am going to see Bayside for the 5th millionth time! This time they are preforming with Straylight Run (meh…) and Tokyo Rose… yep a Jersey band! Okay so they are “azn emo” but you know what… they have pretty cool personalities and their work isn’t tooo bad. And so again… as much as I am going to try to do it… I’m going to have a fun time tonight with Wes at least.

So interview is coming up in a week or two… eh… wish me luck?

~ by aznmegs on January 29, 2008.