it hurts

So there is one of my good friends and I… him and I were really close in the beginning. He was there for me when I ended my last relationship and I was there for him with the failure of 3 relationships (all ended in him crying on the phone to me at 1 in the morning) and other personal things.

Now let me start by saying this… he is not the sharpest tool in the shead. Some of the things that comes out of him are like… what? When him and I were good friends with a girl, she would mention about sex and he would be like, “… what?” not in that he is shocked to hear about it… but he doesn’t know what is going on thing.

There is a time he really  hurt me in the past though. Long story short: he was supposed to meet up with me for lunch but instead he was hanging out and making out with a girl who hurted him a month later. To make matters worse… I found out 3 hours after the meeting time him and I set up…. I’ve learned to put that in the past and go on with my life.

Yet lately he has been saying things that does hurt me. It started with my birthday. I didn’t expect anyone to give me gifts. But he said to me, “I want to give you a gift but I can’t cause I am saving up money to buy an engagement ring.” Now why is that stupid folkes? 1) They were NOT together at that point at all… they ended their relationship 2 months before my birthday. 2) 3 months later she told him she doesn’t love him anymore and is now getting married to another man (to my defense I am not making her sound like a bitch at all. Im making it sound like that he didn’t think things through really).  And then there was this Tuesday at Andrew’s house. I asked Wes after his concert is he coming home to Jersey. He told me no and that he is hanging out with Milky up in New Haven. I guess I was talking out of my ass but I said, “hey how about I take a train up there and we can hang out together?” Wes was all in the idea but milky said, “Wes and I haven’t hung out together in a long time….. but I guess you can come” It could of sounded sarcastic…  but he didn’t sound sarcastic… he sounded like he was pissed off I asked. This is from a guy who calls <b>ME</b> his best friend… this is from a guy who complains why don’t I ever hang out with HIM alone or in general why don’t I hang out with him?

I feel like I lost him as a friend… it happens to me every year though… I gain new friends yet I loose friends. Usually I keep my good friends… but this time I lost one of my good friends…

~ by aznmegs on January 4, 2008.